About to start my new life as a non-smoker….erg….again. This my friends….is HUGE. A solid smoker at the ripe young age of 16 I always thought I could put them down whenever I wanted to. When I got pregnant it took about 4 weeks to completely stop but not only did I care to much about the little person growing inside me but they just tasted disgusting (thanks to the hormones). I didn’t smoke the 3 months I was on maternity leave either however once I started back at work it was just a few short weeks that I picked them up again. Any excuse to get outside and take a short break. Again I lived under the delusion that I could put them down as easily as I picked them up the second time. Besides I only started smoking again in August…..I was very wrong. So as part as my “life renovation” smoking…..has got. to. go. At 24 there is no good reason that I should wake up having breathing problems, coughing up just junk, getting winded walking up steps, spending money I could save, and smelling like smoke around my daughter.
I started Chantix a week ago. It weens you onto it and then after 12 weeks, your done. So I’ve continued smoking thru the first week, which is standard, but today I started the full dose and let me tell you…I have ZERO interest in smoking. In fact the thought of lighting one up makes me sick. I had one this morning, my last one, and I have all ideas that is the last one that I will ever have. It feels SO good to say that. I am so glad that there is a medicine out there that potentially saves lives. I feel amazing about myself. Now it may sound like Im jumping the gun a little but seriously as long as I feel the way I do now a few weeks from now, I have nothing to worry about.
So I can check that accomplishment off my list (YAY!) And I have been steady tanning the last month and I must say, I have a nice little glow going on. Makes me feel good, look a little healthier and makes me appear a little thinner…..appear being the key word lol. I have been digging into Ephesians a bit at night. Still not spending as much time in the Word that I want or need but I’m getting into the habit of opening it every night and getting some good reading in anyway. My renovation is still underway and I still have a little ways to go. I need a little more discipline on my calorie intake and a little more discipline on the budget but I’m gonna get there. And its going to feel even better when I do.
