I’ve been pretty stagnant these days. Nothing really substantial going on in the noggin but I felt like I needed to jot something down since I’ve got the free time. I’ve been thinking about renovating my life….pretty much in all areas. I think I’ve mentioned doing this before, but I always loose my way and direction. It’s been a good start since January…we started with are finances and I must say I am pretty proud of us as a couple. I think we could do a little better with the discipline of it but all in all it’s been such a blessing. And there is nothing like the comfort of knowing we have a little coushin if we need it.
I finished the book about love languages. I still don’t know what I am….but there is this part about if your love tank is full and stays that way, it could be hard to figure it out since you don’t know what you need because your needs are being met. Chris is such a good husband that way, I am never in need of anything, and if I am all I have to do is ask…and he takes care of it. At this point I think I’m a little of all of them. I was really hoping I could figure it out and it would assist in making our marriage better. I think that even if a marriage is good it can always be better…..so I guess that part of my “life renovation” is at a stand still. Chris has to go out of town for at least 3 weeks so that means Im going to play the roll of single mom for a while. I have to admit that I am really dreading the thought of not having anyone to lean on. I am so use to being given that much needed break when he gets home…now it will just be a constant “I need mommy”. In a way tho, Im sure it will bring Chris and I closer and Adalyn will get all the mommy she wants. We will see how this pans out.
I decided that I am going to start tanning (this is the physical aspect of the renovation). I know that tanning is not good for you…lol…but Im still going to do it, temporarily. I remember when I did about 3 years ago, I felt so good about myself and I just looked so much healthier. Having pasty white skin all the time kinda gets old. I felt really good about myself when i was tan, almost sexier….and its always awesome when I woman feels sexy, its a whole new attitude. I think thats the whole thing, after the baby and this new body, I want to do something that makes me feel sexy. Besides, tan fat looks so much better then white fat… : ) I’ve lost the baby weight but I still have 25lbs to go before the “after Chris” weight. I think I have made a bargain with myself. 1. Once I get back down to 145lbs…I will chop all my hair off again OR 2. Just set my sights on loosing 15lbs by May 15th. Thats a little less then two months…..think I can do it? Hope so.
My spiritual life needs a MAJOR renovation. It always has. I just dont understand why I dont dig into the Word more. Why dont I set a time away everyday to just devote myself to Him? I ask myself this all the time. I’m very good at tuning my CD player to christian music and let it maranate in my spirit. I just love praise and worship music but I still need more. Can’t survive on music alone. I always soak up Pastor Steve’s messages but once a week is not often enough. As easy as it is to start….I think its probably one of the hardest things to do. I’m probably over complicating it. Maybe on Monday I’ll just do it. Start with 15 minutes of prayer and Bible reading. I think once I begin this renovation some other aspects of my life that I need help on will work themselves out.
Chris and I changed our 2010 “goals”. I think that baby #2 is going to wait till 2011. It’s a great thought to have to youngins only 2 years apart but man……i think we just need some quality time with Adalyn before venturing into another new little life.
Ok- so thats my plan.
